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TW/CW warning: description of trauma responses I've been taking some time away from writing here. Severally factors, of course. However, I'm feeling the need to express myself as of late. Trauma symptoms/reactions/responses are weird. Usually I like surprises. But not this kind. One day, like yesterday, I'm on the mountain top. For once, I can see the intricate winding trails of my future. I can feel the progress I've made over these past few years boiling to a point which will only lead me to success and happiness. I can see that others see it too. And then just like that. SURPRISE. The iron ball in the bit of my stomach, secured in a web of knots. Sweaty palms that make it impossible to do anything. Intrusive thoughts spinning and spinning and spinning as if their life depended on it. The twist in my tongue making it impossible for me to accurately speak or say what it is I'm feeling. The invisible elephant that seems to sit upon my chest, no qualms to the fact